Saturday, October 29, 2011

I can take it

denial
know it is going to happen sooner or later
rather it be later
not ready for you to go.
I know you do not tell me everything
because you do not want to see me upset
or lose focus of my studies
but I am not a child anymore
I do not need to be protected
I am strong
I am a suvivor
I got that from you
no more secrets
no more denial
no more protecting the heart
just the bare essentials
the truth
I can take it.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

one who walks past without noticing, is not observent.
one who walks past, then turns back around, is pre-occupied.
one who stops, and notices, then continues, is not concerned.
one who stops, notices, and assists, has the time and heart.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Rest in Peace

lost one of our own. at times doesn't seem real.
anniversary of one's death rapidly approaching.
I know the family remembers. I know the family will be honoring their beloved.
her other family will honor and remember as well.
we shall never forget. her smile. her laugh. her tears. her selflessness.
personal courage. loyalty to family and friends. honor. respectful of others. duty to country.
you will not be forgotten. rest in peace soldier. we salute you.

Soldier and their family

in a far away land. surrounded by sand. sandstorms. strangers, foreign and domestic.
doing their duty. some agree and some do not. family back home holdin' their place.
hugging their pillow. sending prayers out to keep them safe. wishing they were home.
they know they are doing their job. proudly. they all feel the pride.
the soldier and their family.

Monday, October 17, 2011

Autumn

the breeze outside is cool
the clouds a blanket over the earth
appears to be approaching nightfall,
but really it is only afternoon.


quiet outside today
not even a bird in sight
or squirrels playing
fall is here, winter is on its way.

before you know it the snow will be falling
the temperatures will dropping below
with winter brings the hustle and bustle of
Thanksgiving
Christmas.

the breeze outside
the quietness of fall
watching the leaves change color
from a park bench
near a lake.

WRITTEN WoRdS

the words on the paper written by a poet
words with meaning
to the poet
to the reader.
the written word
strong and unafraid
the words written by the poet
a diguise for the heart.
the poet writes
because the poet cannot speak
what is felt from within.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

A Shell for a HOME

Home...
A house...
it is just a shell for what a real home is, should be.
Home is within yourself,
knowing who you are,
being happy, truely, and completely happy with oneself,
That is the tricky part of being HOME,
but once you have found that place,
it will be well worth the journey.
It is a long journey, one that can take a lifetime,
some do not even find this place, we call HOME,
then we wonder why we wasted our time looking,
when we come to the end of our journey...
A HOME,
a place to call HOME,
inner peace,
inner happiness,
searching and searching,
for that place.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

On This Earth

You know me better than anyone on this earth,
I know this, you know this,
I know I may try to deny it, but only because it is true.
I love you with all my heart and soul,
I have never loved another, like I love you.
I do not regret,
I shall never forget,
I will always think what if.
We share a love like no other,
We know this is the right thing,
Yet we have our doubts,
What else could we do?
I love you,
you love me,
We are one when, we are together,
Yet we are individuals too.
You will always know me better than any other,
that will never change, til' the day I die.

Monday, October 10, 2011

BE YOURSELF

I always tried to please everyone else, before pleasing myself. I thought it was selfish to think of me first, then something happened, and I learned it wasn't selfish. We need to be happy to make others happy. In order to this, we need to please ourselves first, take of us as individuals, then take care of others. Once I figured this out, with some help, things were easier and I was a happier person.
I had, still do in some cases, have a low-self esteem and had it all my life. Fear of not being good enough at something as someone else, not being as attractive as others, just to name a few. I learned it's not how well I do something, it's the fact that I try and continue to try, never giving up. I am a beautiful person inside and out; yea I may not be on the cover of Playboy, but I don't have to be, to know I am beautiful.
Please yourself first, make sure you are happy, then others will be happy too. If I am not happy, then I cannot help someone else, I am pretty useless.
It comes down to BE YOURSELF!

BACK IN THE GYM

I am back in the gym, working out hard; it feels great!
Getting those endorphins going again.
Motivation,
goals to be met,
tired of feeling blah.
Back in the gym,
going to get ripped,
once again,
this time not going to lose,
the battle,
not going to stop
even when reach my goal.
Hooked on endorphins,
hooked on feeling good.
I'm coming back!

focus

Focus...time to focus and stay focused. Not an easy task to do, especially when you have a billion things going on. Did it once, I can do it again; it's not that I am not focused, just got a little sidetracked. Nothing that can't be fixed, it's an easy fix and already working on it. Just have to remain focused now, no matter what....
Taking the time for the things that I need to do and get accomplished, first and foremost.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

you ask

you ask how things are?
i say i am fine
you know the truth
but you dont press on.
im ok
life keeps going
i keep going
i keep pushing
and pushing
for that happiness within
sometimes i am
sometimes not so sure
life?
its so damn confusing!
one minute we are all happy
then the next
boom!
not so happy anymore...
life?

indian summer

indian summer is here
cool in the morning
warmer as the day moves on
the evenings are little cool as well
but not to bad, just right.
indian summer
i like indian summer
the temperature is just right
not to hot
not to cold
just right
too bad it couldn't stay all year long....