I can see through that wall

I see you through the wall...that you have built, you think you can hide,that no one can see, what you're hiding from, don't be fooled. You are only hiding from yourself, you may think you're hiding from all of us. So, tear that wall down, watch it come tumbling down, don't be afraid, you are protected...from a more powerful source, than you and I. No more hiding, no more walls, no more being afraid, live and let be, things will happen...when they do, you will see. I can see through that wall, you can't hide, it is impossible to, so confide, in me, and if not me than Him. Tear that wall...down, watch it come smashing, crashing, the way you should be...coming through.

I am not afraid anymore

Always there by my side,
I know this,
For this, I am not afraid anymore,
haven't been for a very long time.
For I have many guides in front of me,
to show me the way.
I am not afraid to go on this journey alone,
if I have to...for I am not really alone.
I am not afraid to go the distance,
I am not afraid to let go anymore,
for I am not forgetting,
simply continuing foward on this journey.

The Mighty Dollar

The mighty dollar,
some have it, some do not,
there are some who have a ton,
then there are some who only have little.

The mighty dollar,
not very mighty at all,
doesn't go very far now-a-days.

The mighty dollar,
not everyone has a mighty dollar...
in thier pocket.

The mighty dollar,
a pretty scarce piece of paper...
for some.

The mighty dollar,
some have it,
some don't.

The Poet Goes to Sleep

here the poet sits, and waits and waits...for it, waiting for what, the poet asks, there is no response, therefore the poet sits, and waits a little longer. the poet writes a letter, signs it when finished, puts it in an envelope, seals it closed. the poet lays down on the bed to sleep, laying on the back, arms at the sides of the poet, looking so at peace while the poet is sleeping.

Feel Useful...

Productive day. Good day. Hope it lasts. Hopefully when I begin work and leads to full time I'll be ok. Because I need to keep busy, to have a job and make money And to feel useful.

It's My Turn...

I give up. I can't do it anymore, trying to please people if it's not something i want to do. If they cannot understand and just accept that I don't want to do something for the sake of not wanting to just because and that's it, nothing more or nothing less...then I guess it's good-bye. I just wish people would not read into things more than what it is, sometimes it's something just that simple, as I don't want to do anything or go anywhere. That I just want to have some ME time, then I don't know what to tell you. If it's selfish to have ME time, then I guess I am selfish, but hey all my life it's been about everybody else it is my turn now. Just can't deal with it anymore,I am done, emotionally all done. God please send me some more strength and courage to stand up for myself and not feel guilty about it.

the window

Staring out the window looking at the sky, its pinkish, red with a bit of blue and grey. The contrast of the colors are awesome. Drinking a beer, contemplating life's many different directions...decisions ...so many... That I want to do...

Unsure

Feeling ... a little ... not sure...can't place the mood or emotion.

Live Your Life

Live life for yourself, not for others. It is no one else's life to live, they do not know you as you know yourself. Believe that you are worthy of love, success, someone might treat you like you are nothing; however, believe in yourself and believe there is one other who always has your back and loves you completely- God.

Under the Tree, On the Hill

Sitting under the tree, thinking of you, with your arms wrapped around me tightly. The wind blowing the branches, back and forth, looking over the hill, listening to grass as it grow, listening to the wind blowing through. Sitting under the tree, on the hill, peaceful sounds of nature. I spot a bird on the branch above me, "Hi Mr. Bird, how are you today?" the bird stays perched on the branch for a bit. Sitting under the tree, on the hill, thinking...of you...of life...pondering the beauty.

My Heart

My heart aches for you so badly, like someone is stabbing it repeatedly. In love with someone that you cannot have, to spend your life together, to only see them now and again, it tugs at my heart, all I know is that I love you, I cannot stop loving you, nor do I want to, I can't stop wanting you, I can't stop seeing you, nor do I want to. My eyes fill up, when it is time to say good-bye, until the next time we are together. I feel youlove for me everytime I look into your eys, your heart beats through your chest, onto mine, holding you, holding your hand, you, you take take some of the pain away, for awhile. To love you, is all I want to do.

Sometimes you just have to know when enough is enough, sometimes you just have to let people down, no matter, if they might feel hurt, the person that matters ..most is yourself. There is a time for all of us to be selfish and take care of "us".

Need that motivation back and to maintain it...

Working out makes things feel so much better, and I need to workout everyday with no excuses, but holy cow it's been so tough to stay motivated throughout this year. I know I need to workout to maintain my positive attitude towards life, among other things. However, I worked out today with a Jillian Michaels DVD, as I did before, it seems like eons ago. I am going to try my damndest to do the DVD everyday. If Ican maintain a routine of everyday at the same time, in turn it will pay off and I will be a much happier and positive person no matter what kind of obstacle is thrown at me. I just have to keep myself motivated, it shouldn't be too hard because I know the effects it has on me when I do or do not workout. I feel really good and get things accomplished when I do workout and when I don't I am bummed out, lay around feeling sorry for myself. It's not that I need to workout with someone because I prefer to workout alone, so I can do my workout, at my pace for however long and when I want. So I know the problem is not there, I believe the problem lays within me and not working, trying to find a new direction, and dealing with my mother's passing a year ago. I have so many options...so many different directions to go... Right now working out seems like the only thing, that is good for me, that makes me feel good.

Untitled

packed the car with a few things, including my guitar, time to get moving again, don't know what it is, just can't stand still, just can't stay in one place too long...even if there is love to have, heading down the highway, going south like the birds...where the sun shines all year, don't know for how long, just know this, it's time to move on, yea she'll be back, to stay not really too sure, might stay for a little while, but this girl cannot be 'grounded'.

Cloudy and dingy outside, Cloudy and overcast within, waiting for the sun to come out and shine so bright. Climbing, climbing until the top of the mountain, looking out past the horizon.

Woke up frustrated, irritated, just has not been a good day. Haven't done much today, took a nap for a couple hours, looking out the window, watching the rain coming down. Don't know what is wrong today, I had a good day yesterday, but no such luck today. Tired of all, Just want some satisfaction, tired of climbing, climbing ....to fall back down again. Frustration, irritation,determination .... To keep going, that I do have, not sure where it comes from ...

Devastation

Hurricane Sandy:  Devastation in many states. Why is the mayor of NYC so concerned about the damn marathon and not helping the people of his city? I think he needs to get his priorioties straight. Where is FEMA, the NG, RedCross? Put those generators to use helping people who need power and heat instead of having them sit in the park waiting for the stupid marathon. Come on get you heads out of your butts and think.
People wonder why so many of us are disgruntled about this country and the people running it, this one reason. immigrants want to come over here to our country, thats a laugh, why would want to do that, our country is falling apart and the politicians don't care as long as they can maintain their socio status they are happy and think everything is ok. They live in a bubble.

Shouldn't go there...I know Better

I know I shouldn't have let my mind go there, but just couldn't help it,
you know me; I may be able to hide from others, but I Cannot hide from you,
no matter How HarD I may want to.
You are there,
I am here,
wish WE were here or there.

                     I may not know a whole lot,
BUT one thing IS for sure that I do Know...I LOve YOu.

You and I
We Have SomeThing...
Cannot Let It go
NOR do We Want to.

I know Shouldn't go there with My mind,
I know better...I know You BetteR THAN that,
However, YOU KnoW Me Better.