Not Alone

I don't have to do this alone,

thank you for all that are by my side, through these sad times,

I know I may be stubborn at times,

I know it may seem like I act all tough,

and think I don't need anyone or help,

just know it's all on the outer banks that I feel like that.

Thank you for all your love and kindness,

thank you all for your friendship and support,

I am truly not alone.

You're Amazing

There are times I feel so weak,
then I turn on the radio, to the song changed my life once before,
therefore, when I hear it again, it reminds me of what I once was and who I have become,
and where I want to go.
I feel stronger now,
you are amazing, the power you have,
over myself and all the rest.
You have an amazing gift,
the gift of love,
the gift of faith,
thank you for not giving up on me.

A Little Bit Closer

A little bit closer,
yet, it still feels so far away.
So close, that I can see it, breathe it, and almost touch it.
Oh Lord, please let me make it,
I don't ask you for much,
and when I do, it usually means I have no where else to turn.
A little bit closer,
to reach my goal,
sometimes it feels like I'll never reach it,
there's always an obstacle in the way,
all I want, is to make it on time,
please, I only have a little bit more to go.

I cannot get used to you being away,
don't worry though, I will make it,
after all I am your daughter.
A couple of days will go by, and I'll be ok,
then the next couple of days come around, not doing so well.
It only takes seeing your picture, or something you wore or touched,
and I just lose it all.
I know you will always be with me, watching over me,
but it's just not the same.
Just cannot get used to this.

Good-bye,
don't be sad for me,
for I am going home.
You don't have to worry about me,
because I will be free from stress, pain, and heartache,
no need to be sad for me.
Good-bye,
we will meet again someday,
we will be together to do all the things that we once did,
so don't worry my friends.

Does this pain ever go away?
Does this pain ever ease?
There are days I feel like it's getting easier,
then bam! There it is again, the pain, and sometimes harder than before.

No Excuses!!

No Excuses!! I am worth it!!
Something to repeat and continue to repeat until it becomes second nature,
like waking up in the morning is.
I have no more excuses, I have to workout, I have to go for a run, even if I hate to run;
I need to it, my future depends on it.
No More Excuses!!

Distant and Tired

tired of losin' people I love.
Looking around at others,
watching them with their moms, brothers...
wishing that could be me.
I don't want pity,
I don't want anything from you-
I just wish I understood.
I am a believer and a dreamer and always will be,
however, I have lost faith in so many things,
but one thing I have not lost my faith in, that is YOU.
I know sometimes it seems like I am distant,
but I will never be too distant to feel your love and hope.