Sunday, December 30, 2012

numbness

The forth day, it's been hard, I want a drink, to numb the pain.

Friday, December 28, 2012

i got your love

i got your love wrapped in my heart so tight,
i can't breathe right.
your love has me under a spell that i cannot resist.
i look at you i see the sunshine, as it warms me.
we belong, i wish you could see it too,
maybe i am blinded by your love,
but blinded or not,
we belong,
to each other.
i got your love wrapped arounf my heart,
so tightly,
i can't see straight.
i look into those baby blues,
and i just melt into your arms.

Tired

Don't give up.
keep fighting.
you're an inspiration to us.
you're a strong woman.
No one sees the truth inside.
tired of being strong.
sometimes I need to let it out.
need some inspiration myself.
need some company.
thats all I want at times, is company.
Thats all any of us really want, is company.

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Holding Back

On my mind,
don't know what to make of it,
Not going to say anything.
Just going go about my life.
Focus.
Sentiments rushing my mind.
Taking all that I got,
holding back,
Focus.

Just a Little Bit

I think I am needing a separation for a little bit,
need to take time to refocus, on what is important,
time to really take notice.

Take on some new challenges,
time to do,
no more just talking,
the time is now.

Good-bye, for now, a little bit.

Thoughts

So many thoughts,
racing in my mind...about you.
We've been through so much.
Wonder where it will go,
how far it will go so.


Many a thoughts,
going through my head,
have thoughts coming out my ears,
thoughts that keep me up at night.


Dazed at times,
here I am...physically.

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Seek and Find

Seek and you shall find. Don't fear the unknown, there is nothing to fear, Except fear itself. If we do not seek we will not know, if we do not find then there will always be wonder. Where there is wonder, there will be regret, life cannot be lived by regrets. Seek and find, do not fear, just live and be.

Another Year....

The year is almost over. Another year came and gone, It doesn't seem like a new year will be starting in just few short days. Where has this year gone, so much as happened and hardly nothing has happened. All I can do is hope,pray, and live life, the best way that I can, Love God more than ever. This upcoming new year, I shall be happy, do what's best for me.

Resolutions

New Years Resolutions, usually we make them, stick to them for a couple weeks, then something happens and we fall apart. This year, I don't think I will make any, instead I will just live the best life I can, I will make sure I am good to myself because I am worth it. I am going to take care of me first, find the happiness within. This New Year's I will not make any resolutions, only live the best life I can, and be happy.

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Time is Now

Time is now. No time like the present. Not yesterday, not tomorrow, but now. Though tomorrow is here in an hour. Time has come, time is now, not yesterday, but now.

To Seek Help

To seek help, Not an easy task to do, To seek help,is it a sign of weakness, there was a time where I thought it did, However, I know differently now, though it doesn't make it any easier, to ask for help. We all need to ask for help at one point in our lives, Although, for some it takes longer, Some are too stubborn to seek the help they need, to move foward.

Sunday, December 23, 2012

All I want for Christmas

All I want for Christmas ... I want to feel content with my life, to feel peace within. All I want for Christmas ... I don't care about, Any of the material things that are given, I just want...to be happy within.

Christmastime

Christmastime, Family, friends, but most of all to remember The true meaning, of Christmas. Christ our Lord, Our savior, Who died for our sins. Merry Christmas to all.

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Here and there. Want to please you, I Want ME to be HAPPY, Decisions, dislike them...very much so, though I know they have to be made, and has to be the best decision for ME; After all I need to be happy too, not just make another happy too.

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Book review: Chasing the Night by Iris Johansen

Book review: Chasing the Night by Iris Johansen


Five stars





Chasing fears away, a hook, line and sinker, a non-stop plot.

Chasing the Night is another novel featuring Eve Duncan, a character created by Iris Johansen in of her many best-selling novels. Johansen grabs your attention from the beginning to end demanding your attention until you finish the book.

Iris Johansen’s books link together without requiring to read book one; if you are like me and have only read a few of her books as they each link together, yet I did not feel lost or confused. I read Chasing the Night in no time at all and when I got to the end, I found myself satisfied, yet wanting to read more.

I recommend this to anyone who likes a good mystery and suspense novels; if you have never picked up one of Iris Johansen’s novels, pick one up, give it a read. You will not be disappointed.




Friday, December 14, 2012

Fighting for Freedom

Fighting for freedom,
Fighting for a country
That half doesn’t even support us.
Dying for these people, who do not
Support us,
Though we serve and fight, the cause,
Does not mean we are for the cause,
We are for our country,
We do it for the love of our country,
To keep it the land of the free,
Because freedom is not free.

A Quiet Place

A quiet place,
it once was,
not anymore it's not.
 A peaceful place,
freedom for all,
or so it seemed to be true.
As we know,
 for freedom,
there is a price to be paid.

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

A New Dawn

A new dawn.
A new light.
Another chance at life,
to make things right.
Some do not get another chance,
or even see the light
of the new dawn.
Grateful, that I am,
that I saw the light
of the new dawn,
and given that chance...yet again.
Start fresh today,
try, and try,
that's all I can do,
and I will succeed...once again.
A new dawn,
another chance at life.

Our Bleeding Hearts

Bleeding heart, aching heart, tired of giving my heart in full, just to be stomped on, then tossed out like yesterdays news. I know you don't mean to hurt me, I know you hate yourself for doing so...don't, you are only doing what is best for you...right now. Can't control everything, so don't even try, ain't gonna do any good, No relationship is guaranteed. My heart bleeds for you to love me, like you used to, though, my mind knows you need the time...and the space. No one else may understand you and me, but that is okay, it's not their hearts that are bleeding and aching.

Monday, December 10, 2012

Screw It!

Screw it! Nothing lasts anyway, why should I bother, tired if the hurt, tired of the pain, no more, I am done, I give up. Long term, love relationships, are jokes, they don't last, no one wants that life. A life of love, sharing lives. However, people say and do things...they mean, or they have a change of heart. So screw it, no more, I don't need a relationship, they are just not the worth the heartache.

Saturday, December 1, 2012

alone when we enter

Alone we enter this world, alone we leave this world, the one that is by our side Through both these life events cannot be seen...only felt In the heart. So then why do we try so Hard to find another? Alone in the womb, Alone in the ground, Alone at times in the middle, So why all the fuss?
Let be, for some just have no clue, some live in their own little world, Hearing and seeing nothing that is true hearted. They seem a little off, but takes a you a few to notice That they are not real, they need help, but don't see it. Oh well, can't help those who don't want see the issue; as they live in their own little world.

The Doormat

The doormat stepped on, wiped on, left out in the... In the cold. Used and abused, no more says the doormat.

the only one

Dependable, loving, best friend, Does not judge, forgives, The only one.