IS IT?

Is everything we do in our lives, God's plan?
Does it lead up to something?
I just don't know, anymore....
I want to believe that all we do is God's plan,
or at least in his plans,
I just want some answers,
Is everything we do have a purpose, a reason,
or does it just happen and it is up to us to make the choices
in our lives?

To get better at something,
to be the best that we can be at it,
we need to keep doing it over and over...

Just Can't

Letting go,
Hard to do,
doesn't get any easier
as we get older,
some said it would
but it don't,
but it should,
Letting go,
it goes so slow
the process of letting go,
it really sucks,
Do not like letting go,
can't let go,
know that it's necessary,
but just can't,
no reason, just can't,
want to just say the hec with it all,
move on, and forget, but can't let go,
don't like saying can't, but in this instance,
there is no other,
there is no letting go,
no forgetting,
not or ever!

The Storm

The rain,
The thunder,
The lightening,
outside now,
Listening to the rain come down,
how peaceful it sounds,
the flash of lightening,
lights up the sky,
I feel like sitting out on the deck,
with glass of wine in hand,
just listening,
just feeling,
the rain come down,
on me,

Then, you hear it,
the break in the air,
the thunder crashing through the skys above,
the heart jumps and skips a beat for a second,
then relaxes

The rain,
Lightening,
Thunder,
outside,
alone inside, listening to it...

I love you!

I love you,
you love me,
that will never change,
I am in love with you,
as you are with me,
I know why you are, why you have to let go,
I don't like it, and I really don't want it, but I understand,
I will never love a another like I love you,
I will never feel like I am with you again with another,
I can only hope our paths meet again, in this way again,
If we are meant to be one, then we will be one,
although we will always be one in my eyes,
I love you!

here i am....

here I am alone,
but yet not alone,
I have the Lord by me,
I hear you,
but yet there are times i can't hear you,
those, it seems like, are the times I feel alone the most,
I feel closer to you now a days, more than ever before,
but as you see, there are still days I feel alone,
what is that about?
why do I still feel alone?
I know all to well you are there,
beside me, you are holding onto me,
holding things together,

It will be alright,
I will be alright,
I am tough,
I am good,
I am worthy,
I am worthy of it all,
I believe,
I believe in me,
I know I can do it all, that I set out to do,

I'll be alright,
You are beside me,
yes, I will be alright

There once was a woman

There once was a woman,
who did not think very highly of herself,
She had been through so much in her life,
mainly with people "leaving" her,


There once was a woman,
who did for others,
and forgot about herself,


There once was a woman,
who forgot how to have fun,
forgot how to go out and meet friends,
then one day, it hit her,
like a ton of bricks,
wake up woman! You're letting life slip you by,

There once was a woman,
who was an amazing woman,
she never gave up on her goals,
no matter how long it took,
even though she got a bit frustrated,
but she wouldn't give up,
She, was always there for her friends and family,
put them before herself,

There once was a woman,
then she wasn't,
just like that,
in a blink