i cant
just cant
i cant explain it
its the right thing
even tho it hurts like hell
but from ive been told some of the right things hurt
i dont like it
not one bit
i know it looks like
and what it doesnt
but all i know is whats in my heart
i wish there was a window to my heart
but if there is it is covered
it was uncovered at a time
but it is covered now
only opened now and then
i hate this
what it has done
what it has caused
if i knew this would have been the result
i would have stopped it
i dont regret it
i never will
but i dont like what it caused
i hate it