0-90

Sitting here watching a little television, doing a little writing wondering what is next. In a couple of days I will be heading out to my next destination of this journey I have been on for sometime now. It is going to be a positive happening in my life, this I know. Good things are on their way, I know it. It's just the waiting, I do not like to wait, I want things to happen now. Someone once told me, I like to go from 0-90 out of the gate, instead of taking it slow and steady working up the speed. I do this with all in my life, need to stop, slow down, and smell the roses as the ol' saying goes.

falling in love...

what is love? do we ever really achieve it? falling in love, it hurts too much to fall...in love; does anyone ever stay in love anymore these days? if so, it must be a rare breed, or it is just one in a million.

alone again.

Alone, once again; we start out alone and we will end up alone, one way or another. Starting over...again, I will do it, I can do it, I need this, I know, but... Beginning anew.

Rock Bottom

This is scary as hell, I won't lie to you, I guess this is the time for me, my rock bottom, The bottom of the dark hole, and now I need to climb out, No one else can do it for me, rock bottom, on my own, Learning to climb up and out on my own, Learning about who I am, what I want, learning to love me, as others love me, to see what they see. Being forced to go, live and deal with my demons within, Deal with a loss head on. It is time. I have reached my emotional rock bottom.

where did i go?

Looking for me, oh where did I go? I began this journey awhile ago, then I slipped and fell, into a deep, dark hole, here I am stuck or so I thought, I know I can climb out, I've done it so many times before. Here I go again; I need to take time out and away, to be alone and learn about me, learn to love me.