January 12, 2012

January 12, 2012 and it is finally snowing. Not only did it snow, it's still falling from the sky. I just shoveled the walkway, thank goodness it's a small one, but the wind is nuts; nevermind the snow drifts it leaves behind! I really don't mind the snow, it's the driving in it I do not like.

The snow looks so pretty falling, covering the ground, the branches of the trees; it really does look like a postcard out there.

Children wanting to put on their snowpants and boots, mittens and hats and go outside to build snowmen annd snowforts. While the parents would rather stay inside with a cup of hot coco, a book and curl up next to the fire place. However, that rarely happens now-a-days, parents are usually rushing off to work and doing the daily errands.

Motivation

Need to find that motivation I once had; thought I had a firm grasp onto it; however, apparently it was not.
Motivation is found within, it cannot be bought, given to you from a friend, it is within yourself. Motivation surfaces when one is ready for change, when one is ready to conquer their fears and the obstacles that have stood in their way for so long.
My motivation is right there, I see it, I can touch it, I can taste it, I just have to grab a hold of it and this time do not let go under any circumstance! I will get it back, I will hold onto my motivation, I will gain control and stay in control.

The Well

I have to snap out of this state of depression, I was doing so well, then all hell beaks loose as usual....can never anything go good for too long in my life.
I am the type that needs structure, and things to do every minute of every day; otherwise I will fade into the woodwork.
I hate feeling like this, bringing me down and the further I am pushed down, the tougher it is to climb back up without any wounds.

A New Year


By Kristin Hurtig · Friday

As I lie here in bed, in my hotel room, I wonder what 2012 will bring. I am trying to be positive, trying to push foward. However, it is looking pretty grim, the country is in shambles, I've lost so many...sometimes it seems hopeless, but my faith gives me hope, God's love the one who will always be there. I know he doesn't give me anything I cannot handle...

sleeplessness


By Kristin Hurtig · Friday 06 Jan 2012

The mind will continues on and on, cannot seem to shut it off. Tired, want to close my eyes, and fall into a deep, relaxed and rest easy sleep; however, a force of some sort is keeping me from this act of sleep.

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Drill


By Kristin Hurtig · Saturday 07 Jan 2012

Here at drill this weekend, going to be an interesting couple of days. It's not training, unless it's raining....NOT

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Casting Crowns

Casting Crowns- The Well:

I heard this morning and kept playing it over and over. It draws me in, speaking to me as I listen to the words, cannot help but want to do this; however, it is so damn hard! I know I need to let go, and leave the past behind me, I will never forget it, instead embrace it and cherish it. Live for today and dream for tomorrow as so many remind me to do...."leave it all behind..."