We do not need a lot to survive,
so why is it that the human race strives to keep gathering
more and more stuff?
The more money we get, the more we buy.
I know I can survive on the bare essentials,
yet there is always something new that comes out,
and...
Friday, January 27, 2012
The Crickets
There I was, in the dark, walking along the dirt road;
then I hear a cricket, then another and another.
Oh what a neat sound they make.
So peaceful out here,
just me and the crickets,
and the night sky above me.
then I hear a cricket, then another and another.
Oh what a neat sound they make.
So peaceful out here,
just me and the crickets,
and the night sky above me.
Saturday, January 21, 2012
the desire
The desire is so strong,
when we make love,
the the ground begins to rumble beneath us.
My heart races as I look at your beautiful smile,
the touch of your hand on my thigh, turns me on so,
makes my desire for you even more so, uncontrollable.
I desire you more than anyone that I've ever been with,
when we are together, the passion inside explodes.
The desire for you, for your touch, for your love,
oh how I cannot imagine life without.
when we make love,
the the ground begins to rumble beneath us.
My heart races as I look at your beautiful smile,
the touch of your hand on my thigh, turns me on so,
makes my desire for you even more so, uncontrollable.
I desire you more than anyone that I've ever been with,
when we are together, the passion inside explodes.
The desire for you, for your touch, for your love,
oh how I cannot imagine life without.
pain from love
It's just too much for me to bare.
It hurts too much.
Why do we put ourselves through such pain?
Yes, I am talking about the pain from love-
so much pain that occurs,
yes, there is joyous moments too,
but seems like pain overrides it all.
Sometimes I wonder,
should I just throw in the towel,
be alone, travel the grounds...
It is just too much to bare at times,
the pain from love.
It hurts too much.
Why do we put ourselves through such pain?
Yes, I am talking about the pain from love-
so much pain that occurs,
yes, there is joyous moments too,
but seems like pain overrides it all.
Sometimes I wonder,
should I just throw in the towel,
be alone, travel the grounds...
It is just too much to bare at times,
the pain from love.
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Two months....
Two months after you've moved into God's House,
I still have my moments, days, hours and minutes,
I try to remain strong,
I try not to cry as much, at least not in sight.
I miss you greatly,
I wish I had some more time with you.
I'm trying to keep moving foward,
trying not ot wallow in my saddness to much,
I know you wouldn't want that.
I think of your smile,
and it makes me smile, yet with a tear in my eye.
I still have my moments, days, hours and minutes,
I try to remain strong,
I try not to cry as much, at least not in sight.
I miss you greatly,
I wish I had some more time with you.
I'm trying to keep moving foward,
trying not ot wallow in my saddness to much,
I know you wouldn't want that.
I think of your smile,
and it makes me smile, yet with a tear in my eye.
Broken on the inside
Broken on the inside,
will it ever heal?
I don't want to be broken anymore.
When a layer begins to heal,
one starts peeling off.
I've been broken so many times,
I know I will heal and have healed,
but this time feels different somehow.
I just can't stay above water,
every once in awhile,
I fall below the surface.
I am tired, very tired,
of breaking,
healing, and breaking again...
will it ever heal?
I don't want to be broken anymore.
When a layer begins to heal,
one starts peeling off.
I've been broken so many times,
I know I will heal and have healed,
but this time feels different somehow.
I just can't stay above water,
every once in awhile,
I fall below the surface.
I am tired, very tired,
of breaking,
healing, and breaking again...
something to believe in
You gave me love,
you gave me something to believe in.
I need you in my life,
to help me keep balanced.
Something to believe in, that is you,
please don't shut me out completely,
let me talk to you, see you when we can.
I need you in my life, to believe that there is a purpose,
you keep me in check.
Please don't take away my love for you and bury deep within,
please don't close the doors;
I know it seems like I've already done that, with the choice I made,
but really I haven't.
Feels like I am in Heaven and Hell;
it just doesn't seem like I can never get enough of something;
I always need to go looking into the other pastures...
you gave me something to believe in.
I need you in my life,
to help me keep balanced.
Something to believe in, that is you,
please don't shut me out completely,
let me talk to you, see you when we can.
I need you in my life, to believe that there is a purpose,
you keep me in check.
Please don't take away my love for you and bury deep within,
please don't close the doors;
I know it seems like I've already done that, with the choice I made,
but really I haven't.
Feels like I am in Heaven and Hell;
it just doesn't seem like I can never get enough of something;
I always need to go looking into the other pastures...
Friday, January 13, 2012
Christmas 2012
Christmas 2012
It's the day after Christmas in Greenville, SC.
Sitting in your chair, as I look around the room,
my mind wanders off,
I find it hard to believe at times, that you're really gone,
I sit here in your chair,
waiting for to walk through the front door,
but then when you don't,
I breakdown with tears streaming from my eyes.
I retrieve your sweater/jacket that you wore,
I pull it close to me,
crying into it, it smells like you.
I just want to curl up into a ball and fade away...
It's the day after Christmas in Greenville, SC.
Sitting in your chair, as I look around the room,
my mind wanders off,
I find it hard to believe at times, that you're really gone,
I sit here in your chair,
waiting for to walk through the front door,
but then when you don't,
I breakdown with tears streaming from my eyes.
I retrieve your sweater/jacket that you wore,
I pull it close to me,
crying into it, it smells like you.
I just want to curl up into a ball and fade away...
Thursday, January 12, 2012
January 12, 2012
January 12, 2012 and it is finally snowing. Not only did it snow, it's still falling from the sky. I just shoveled the walkway, thank goodness it's a small one, but the wind is nuts; nevermind the snow drifts it leaves behind! I really don't mind the snow, it's the driving in it I do not like.
The snow looks so pretty falling, covering the ground, the branches of the trees; it really does look like a postcard out there.
Children wanting to put on their snowpants and boots, mittens and hats and go outside to build snowmen annd snowforts. While the parents would rather stay inside with a cup of hot coco, a book and curl up next to the fire place. However, that rarely happens now-a-days, parents are usually rushing off to work and doing the daily errands.
The snow looks so pretty falling, covering the ground, the branches of the trees; it really does look like a postcard out there.
Children wanting to put on their snowpants and boots, mittens and hats and go outside to build snowmen annd snowforts. While the parents would rather stay inside with a cup of hot coco, a book and curl up next to the fire place. However, that rarely happens now-a-days, parents are usually rushing off to work and doing the daily errands.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Motivation
Need to find that motivation I once had; thought I had a firm grasp onto it; however, apparently it was not.
Motivation is found within, it cannot be bought, given to you from a friend, it is within yourself. Motivation surfaces when one is ready for change, when one is ready to conquer their fears and the obstacles that have stood in their way for so long.
My motivation is right there, I see it, I can touch it, I can taste it, I just have to grab a hold of it and this time do not let go under any circumstance! I will get it back, I will hold onto my motivation, I will gain control and stay in control.
Motivation is found within, it cannot be bought, given to you from a friend, it is within yourself. Motivation surfaces when one is ready for change, when one is ready to conquer their fears and the obstacles that have stood in their way for so long.
My motivation is right there, I see it, I can touch it, I can taste it, I just have to grab a hold of it and this time do not let go under any circumstance! I will get it back, I will hold onto my motivation, I will gain control and stay in control.
The Well
I have to snap out of this state of depression, I was doing so well, then all hell beaks loose as usual....can never anything go good for too long in my life.
I am the type that needs structure, and things to do every minute of every day; otherwise I will fade into the woodwork.
I hate feeling like this, bringing me down and the further I am pushed down, the tougher it is to climb back up without any wounds.
I am the type that needs structure, and things to do every minute of every day; otherwise I will fade into the woodwork.
I hate feeling like this, bringing me down and the further I am pushed down, the tougher it is to climb back up without any wounds.
Monday, January 9, 2012
A New Year
By Kristin Hurtig · Friday
As I lie here in bed, in my hotel room, I wonder what 2012 will bring. I am trying to be positive, trying to push foward. However, it is looking pretty grim, the country is in shambles, I've lost so many...sometimes it seems hopeless, but my faith gives me hope, God's love the one who will always be there. I know he doesn't give me anything I cannot handle...
By Kristin Hurtig · Friday
As I lie here in bed, in my hotel room, I wonder what 2012 will bring. I am trying to be positive, trying to push foward. However, it is looking pretty grim, the country is in shambles, I've lost so many...sometimes it seems hopeless, but my faith gives me hope, God's love the one who will always be there. I know he doesn't give me anything I cannot handle...
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Casting Crowns
Casting Crowns- The Well:
I heard this morning and kept playing it over and over. It draws me in, speaking to me as I listen to the words, cannot help but want to do this; however, it is so damn hard! I know I need to let go, and leave the past behind me, I will never forget it, instead embrace it and cherish it. Live for today and dream for tomorrow as so many remind me to do...."leave it all behind..."
I heard this morning and kept playing it over and over. It draws me in, speaking to me as I listen to the words, cannot help but want to do this; however, it is so damn hard! I know I need to let go, and leave the past behind me, I will never forget it, instead embrace it and cherish it. Live for today and dream for tomorrow as so many remind me to do...."leave it all behind..."
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