Cleaning House

sometimes you just have to clean house,
wipe the slate clean and start over;
no one ever said it was going to be easy,
it's something that has to be done to move on.
Everyone comes into our lives for a reason,
some stay for long while,
and some for only a short time,
either way, there is a reason for all that come into our lives.

Time to clean house,
wiping the slate clean,
moving on,
letting go,
how I've always hated to let go, and-
tried to avoid it at all costs,
no more can I do that,
if I want to move on and be happy.

harder time than i thought

Maybe I am having a harder time with this afterall, Miss you mom, thought I was handling it fairly well, but I guess not. Something isn't right with me, I can feel it and my actions, attitude shows it as well. grief, something that seems so common, yet so different with each who encounter it.

goodbye

The past is the past, No sense dwelling in the past, It doesn't do any good for the heart Or mind, aside making us nuts. Time to let go, Letting go, It's been real, It's been the time our lives, Or it's been a living hell, Either way, it's time to let it all go. Goodbye, to the past, Although, you will never be forgotten; However, the past is behind, Cannot live in the past, Must keep moving forward.

I may not be rich

I may not be rich with money, But I have love, my health, friends and family, Who love me for who I am; I am a good person, good to my friends, Family; I serve my country. I don't need all the money in the world- to be happy. Being rich, having money, doesn't bring true happiness. I may not be rich- and I don't care to be, honestly I do not.

lying here

Here I am lying in bed this Sunday morning, Being served my coffee, Waiting for a breakfast sandwich, Wow, I am not used to being waited on, Being loved this much by someone, Don't know what to do or even how to act sometimes; Here I am, Will this last or will it fade like all the rest? I don't mean to sound so bitter on love Or about any of you, my past loves; I love you all and I know you all love me, We had good times, We were meant to be, At the time, Now its time to move on... for all of us.

Truth or Not...

Cruel world,
out for themselves;
kindness,
no more;
trust,
next to none,
if any at all;
how did it end up this way?
Love,
seems like its slim pickings,
lovers, friends,
its all a slim chance.
Does anyone really understand?
Does anyone really ever really love,
or is there an agenda,
behind every spoken word,
behind every feeling,
if there is what do we do;
play along,
walk away.

Mother's Day

I must admit I get a little jealous,
seeing others
with their mothers,
especially on Mother's Day;
Oh how I wish I had you here,
to hug,
take to lunch,
sit and chat about our day,
and about our lives, ok my life,
because afterall you would rather
hear about me.
I cherish those times together,
holding them close to my heart,
for the rest of my days;
I never took any one day for granted,
nor did I take you for granted;
you are the greatest mom a daughter can have,
we might have not had a lot of nice things,
but we had lovein our family,
you did the best you could,
knowing all that you did,
to raise myself and my older brother;
having nice things are nice,
having unconditional love is so much nicer.
I miss you so much mom,
I know you are with me always,
watching over me,
just wishing you were here and now,
wishing I had at least one more day with you.
Happy Mother's Day,
to the greatest mom!