Looking back...Looking ahead...Looking at today.
Living in the past, wishing for tomorrow to come, but what about today?
No more living in the past, no more living for tomorrow, only living for today.
Living through others, wishing to be like them, why? I am just as good as they are.
No one is really better than another, only different.
The past is yesterday, tomorrow hasn't come yet, today is here and now. Live today, whether it's a bed of roses, or a bed of poop, it is the day that was dealt to you, tomorrow is another day, in the meantime though, live today to the fullest.

I am me

I am me. I was made who I am. Some may not like who I am, but I do not care.
I am not out to please those people, I am out to please myself.
I am who I am. I can strive to for improvement, and I shall do just that, but not to better than others,
but to be better than me, who I was in the past.
To make me stronger, physically and emotionally, to improve the old me, an updated version.
I am me.
If you do not like it, than do not stick around.
If you shall stick around, than accept who I am,
what I am,
how I am.
I am me.
I am content with who I am.
I love me.

It is ok to be me. It is ok to love me.
It does not matter what others think.
Do not worry about what other people are doing,
or not doing.
What is important is how I feel, and what I am doing.
It is ok to make mistakes, learn from them and move on.
If I am too tired to do something, then don't do it.
It's ok to take a break and not do something.

The realization...

Twenty-five years later and finally thinking and possibly realizing why I am here and you are not. I do not know still, why He took you but I think understand what He was trying to do for me. It only took me twenty-five years to figure that out. I guess, it's better that I figured it out now rather than never, huh?

Sometimes we go through this life never realizing anything, nevermind the reasons and purposes; therefore, when that "light bulb" moment comes along, you just have to grasp at it and go with it. It may take another twenty-five years for me to realize something else in my life and hopefully I'll be here and be able to embrace it and accept it whole heartedly and in full capacity.

There is a reason and purpose behind all HIS decisions in our lives.

life is like an algebraic equation

life is like an algebraic equation.

there is always an unknown variable. 

we always know x,

but do not know y. 

wanderer by  nature.
traveler by choice.
why can't I stay in one place?
why can't I be satisfied in one place?
deserve to be happy,
wandering around,
place to place.